What is life: Does one have a control over it?

I haven’t found out the answer as of now. Another question that bugged me since childhood has been that, who am I? Am I the person who owns this body or much more? Why am I doing this and not that? Maybe the questions aren’t clear to me as it was then. Ok, many people will be saying that you are being philosophical and search for a spiritual guru. May be someday I will search for him too. But as of now I wish that I had some easy lucid fast convincing answers. Just like the scientific queries. Irrefutable logics is what I am asking for now. May be I am asking too much. But then I would love to have that Brahm gyaan.

May be I am deviating from the topic title but I think that all things are interrelated if one looks closely. But the thing that inspired me to post was a simple drudgery of life. Is one life one’s own. Why that one is has to run the rat race. Why one has to even if he doesn’t want to.

I wanted a real free life away from the pressures that you should do this and not that. I wished to join some Ashram when I was young, wasn’t allowed (maybe it was right for me from my parent’s perspective). I wanted to do farming so that I don’t have to run rat race. I always imagined what a life would have been at the iron-age civilization. I know that it would have been tough to survive. Diseases epidemics, predators etc, but worth a try just imagine! Leave difficulties alone for a moment what was a life gathering food and lying just under the sun. Quite close to monkey’s lives.

I know that there is also a race of mating, food. But then I would trade sex any day with a life without strings. May be you will say that I am being an escapist. May be, I am, but then maybe not. I just want to live a life where I don’t have to prove myself every time. I want to be as natural as I am, always. Way away from external influences.

What I think that I a looking for a life in which you have no responsibilities. Be it as a father, brother, friend or son. Every time I wish to do something out of the world and have real intention in doing so. Either I am directly stopped or now being considered grown up is more often emotionally black-mailed. I think that right now it’s only my parents whom I am answerable to. And even them I am not able to break fee. Later in life the bonds will be more rigid. How will I be able to break free then? Seems that I will have to do it sooner or stop worrying on that count. I want to lead a life of anonymity. And not be judged from what I have achieved materialistically. Do not try to judge me every time. Don’t expect me to follow what all people. In short I don’t want to be conformist.

Maybe you all will be thinking that what rubbish I have written above. So be it, I can’t help it. In starting I have written the questions aren’t clear to me and so have to forget the answer. This was the closest that I could get closest to my dilemma. So if you don’t get it don’t ponder much, I am still trying to figure it out. It’s written just for the sake that whenever I re-read this post some points may get clearer, to me, in due course of time.

Orkut: I didn’t know it was such a powerful communicating medium.

With the growth of internet and facilities of two way views it has become quite an good place to debate upon. Pakistan and India have good numbers of users there roughly 2.5% of the entire public (considerably large considering that Brazil has around 70% population.

Citing the demographic percentage was for the insurance that both countries are equally represented. And as will be expected there are two main communities doing the round which is important for me as an Indian first and Hindu next.

Now what really caught my attention were the three topics which most of us are ignorant about or want to know more about it. I spent entire day in reading them. They being

1. India and Pakistan.
2. Muslims and Hindus
3. Indian Muslims and India.

I really was spell bounded by what an average person’s opinion was on the subject. There were two terrific communities which had quite a good participation (Not withstanding few assholes.). Are ……..

1. http://www.orkut.com/Community.aspx?cmm=18389 (International relations)

2. http://www.orkut.com/Community.aspx?cmm=687469 (Indian Muslims)

The above communities aren’t the usual hate groups that are in plenty. They are the most genuine and most active. Which, I will, further edit in due course of time. I shall definitely post some summary or things that influenced my outlook regarding the same.

Just one thing that I will add to here about the Muslim & Hindu populace (Indian ones) is from good socio-economic background, keeping the fact that they are using net in forums. So theirs view May not in entirety represent all the people (It will not even be 0.1% of the entire population). So the links while reading them one had to keep that in mind that they are the elitist club and not the views of entire community. Discretion is required. But for the first topic I think we can assume that it was a reasonable reflection of thoughts of the parties concerned.

Google vs Msn vs Yahoo ….. Search Engines

I won’t go into the fancy stuffs like number of pages searched or for that matter time taken for the given search. After all what will micro-seconds loss do to me!!

I will start with a general observation of mine which I felt right after I started blogging on wordpress site. Just for the sake of fun I searched my link at Google (after couple of hours). Lo and behold, the link was there in the search. Just two hours and no publicity but it was still there. So its indexing of new site generation was quite fast.

Later I started the search with Msn search but it didn’t show up. But after a day the results were there. One thing that struck me was that the results were more comprehensive than Google. So Mr. Gates pumping of money is doing some wonders.

Last coming up to another giant, Yahoo. It didn’t showed the results that day. Not even after that day. The story that the search result isn’t there now too. Seems that acquisitions of overture haven’t done much wonders. But then its search capabilities are quite recent. One thing that came from yahoo usage from previous usage is that it has huge space for indexing. It’s display of the things that are in its index are quite huge. More than the other two. May be because of redundancy.

What i best liked about google was the fast way in which it indexes new pages. I am sure that it's google only which can index the whole of net's data. At present no one has that might and will. Clearly Google is a winner. It’s search capabilities indexing are quite fast and not to mention to remove the redundancy faster too. Msn has leaped by leaps and bounds too. Yahoo isn’t that far. May be it just needs some time. Google will have to be constantly on its toes. But then why am I saying this. Google has always wowed us and delivered more than the consumer expected. Gmail is a classic example how it downed all the established email providers. The thing that yahoo couldn’t replicate in search platform.

MY NEW MANTRAS FOR LIFE

Main aaj se ye pran leta hoon ki main in 12 mool sidhanto ko apne jiwan mein utarne ki koshish karoonga. Aur agar upar waale ki iccha hui ko isme kamyab bhi rahoonga.

I have only one fear that this may too will be forgotten like all others principle. But what are humans for, They will try till hey forget..................................

MOOL MANTRAS

1..Yes, some people claim to enjoy exercise. But then, some people claim to have been abducted by aliens too.

2..Stomachs are not meant to be flat, I don’t care what anyone says.

3..Whenever I read about the perils of drinking, I give up reading.

4..Health is merely the slowest possible rate at which one can die.

5..Women might be able to fake orgasms, but men can fake whole relationships.

6..Honesty is the key to a relationship. If you can fake that, you’re in.

7..Never take life too seriously. Nobody gets out alive anyway.

8..A conscience is what hurts when all your other parts feel so good.

9.. Hard work pays off in the future, laziness pays off now.

10.. Experience is something you don't get until just after you need it.

11.. To steal ideas from one person is plagiarism, to steal from many is research.

12..See, the problem is that God gives men a brain and a penis, and only enough blood to run one at a time.

Finally.......

Judge me all you want, but keep the verdict to yourself…

Rampage 06 at synapse

Rampage 06 at synapse
Originally uploaded by mphaxise.

She is the best bet for ours batch
at rampage 2006.

She participated in every cultural festival.

This year wasn't present so thought to keep for the memory sake.

Me

Myself en-route to Dwarika......

Mumbai-Darshan — 19th March

As usual I had multiple wakeup alarm on mobile. Anyways got up and fast tried to get ready for the 7:07 train from Koperkhairaine. Just on time reached there and got into the train. It was the first experience of Mumbai local train. Being the Sunday and curfew there wasn’t a great rush. Anyways I had to change 3 trains to get to Vidyavihar. And there was usual great rush at Kurla. But I was saved because of my ignorance as I was sitting on first class compartment.

One more thing that I had heard about Mumbaites was they don’t give you any time and they are at great rush. But I never faced such thing. Whenever I asked for the directions they gave me (which was in plenty). It was just like any other place. Maybe I was lucky but I would prefer to consider it otherwise.

From Kurla to Vidyavihar, I met Arpil and then we reached the campus together. There at KJSOM they showed the presentation for the college. Such a huge college amidst the Mumbai main area is quite an achievement. Anyways the group was divided after verification of the documents. The case study was quite boring. One sided case and no one had to say something against the case. In PI me a lady and a gents. She was quite affable and I think that it was quite ok. Thereafter I had lunch. After asking couple of local students decided to go for India gate and then for Juhu beach cahupati.


Got a train till Victoria Terminus (VT). Really the look is like that of Victorian age. The railway station the police headquarters and all other offices or shops in the vicinity wore the look of the ancient times. Great grandeur. It somehow reminded me of the Delhi structures, but they are quite different that’s Mughals and this one is quite recent and quite European.

Taking directions I went to the Gateway of India. Gosh how much dirty the ocean water is there!! I had been there once more with my parents and stayed for quite a small time. This time all the time was mine and my train was at 10:00 pm. And now it was only 1:00 am. Got all the time to kill. Went there and tapa and naapa the foreign maal. Due to heat Arpil wanted to return to pune. I stayed there. Saw the people from different walks of life going for boating towards Elephanta caves which is 9 km from there on boat. Later on the park was opened and I was quite tired and slept and rested there for an hour. Then at around 6, I thought that I will utilize the time and see Juhu and Chaupati in the meanwhile.

I asked for directions and the person asked me to go to Santa-cruz. Whether it was my way of asking or what I believe that I was given a wrong direction. Reaching Santa-cruz was so late that I decided to return to Central. So went there. It was like Mumbai-darshan with bus. Saw many things from bus. I think that I traversed a lot there. Later on got to train and having a reserved journey had a good night sleep. Meanwhile I had a chance encounter with the Isro guy at train.

Teesri Aankh……… Casting Couch

Jab samay kharab hota hai to log yeh dekhte hain.

Yesterday went to rajshree for taxi no 9211 but watched the teesri aankh instead (gosh the timing was changed). What a chutiap movie. Why they make such jhatu movie, all the hot chicks and no story. Guess for the conversion of black money to white and obviously to bed the chicks that they have given the break. No other plausible reasons.

And guess what sunny deol was 1.5 hrs in the movie out of 2 hrs and in the end, when the credit rolls it shows that “thank you sunny deol for guest appearance” . It sure seems that he was also tricked. Sure the 5 min fight sequence was extended to half hour. By the looks of it, it definitely was that sunny shot for couple of days or so.

Baap re baap …. What’s that teesri aankh, the thing that they preached that not to line maaro gals and just that they showed on the film all skins. Just like a pondi movie which the censor board would allow. No stories like they have in English porns.Just the case here was different that it had sunny,ameesha and other high profile actors. They sure had been duped like some guest appearance thing and the producer made a full fledged movie out of it.

Really a novel idea to make a film with less money, when one has good contact with the film industry. It was just made for the continuity of casting couch, giving the new faces so called break…………………..

Indian Idol. Farha & Nigam & TRASH……

What is this crap about bhagya and talent?

Public are well informed and they made a decision to oust a candidate and format for the show says so. And kicking of some one that was the judge’s favuorite doesn’t give them that it all happened because of the luck factor. Public opinion is not luck it’s an well informed decision when the sample size is so big (apart from regional bias. The Mumbai man loosing was more eye-opening because traditionally they have supported their own men and been the largest contributor. But this time all India was united and so Mumbaikar’s should understand that there is more of India apart from the mumbai, which is the entertainment hub. Anu malik had accepted the verdict later on the so called respected judge (read Sonu Nigam) thinks that he isn’t ready to digest the public verdict. And he on his own behalf says that all the judges are not ready? What the hell is going on? When you can’t accept the verdict why include that in the format.

Farha and sonu nigam were never fit for judgment. They are just so brazen. I have watched this for the first time and have seen the brazen manner in which they are saying things about the contestants. Judges ko decent hone ko mangta hai yaar. Not every tom dick and Harry can become a judge. One needs to be well versed (not opinionated) in his field to be able to get that coveted chair. Just that you are well known in industry doesn’t mean that you are fit for passing judgment (in your own word’s (Industry is full of kawa’s who are having moti’s).It’s connection luck talent, in that order. that counts now a days.

Look at the way when a batsman gives little bit of dissent they are fined. And here judges are walking out of the podium. They must also be reprimanded. They are not the crowd who can do anything. It’s a bad precedent. Maybe that is for the TRP’s but then it’s how far can one go for this kind of cheap publicity. Never ever they showed a sympathy with the one whom they were repeatedly kicking out of the show. And now behaving like some spoilt child. It must stop here. Bringing Shahrukh Khan as a judge(even if he is the KING) would also amount as tantamount to injustice. The reason being that being successful doesn’t bring that eye’s of a connoisseur (though I have complete faith in him after watching coffee with Karan). Bringing analogy with cricket match the coach or the umpires or the captains aren’t the best player. They are the one who have the understanding of the finer points of their trade. Being successful doesn’t give you that.

Last time Abhijeet Sawant won because of the Mumbai crowd sms support and Sana lost out. Then where are yours judgment. If majority public thinks that one particular person is better, then that’s the end of the story. After all it’s them who have to listen and they make common man star.

Meanwhile amay’s response was quite mature and hat’s of to him.It all made me remember the Sunil Pal’s satire on them at GILC.See the judges Shekhar Suman & Sidhu. They are so dignified even when there is an adult joke is going on. They are the perfect example. Many contestants mould themselves after the feedback. It’s high time that the judges heed to this one.

2003 Vs 2004 (batch)Who is the winner

The incident, which will tear apart, already a fragile batch interaction in ours college. Junior appeasement is lot like minority appeasement. Minor skirmishes are a way of life. That too an engineering life is a void without it. I am not saying that give the seniors a free hand but don’t be biased against them so much that an apartheid feeling sinks in.

First of all i will give the objective details of what happened at our college annual-cum-cultural-cum-technical festival on February.

“It all happened the night of Rampage which gave the reason for them to fight.
After all it’s the legacy of synapse to have some kinda panga and i was bit disappointed that this time the event will be eventless. Nevertheless bless those souls who kept the flames alive.
It all started as I heard. It was when certain junior boys commented on the 2003 girl. Boys who were close to that girl, to show their macho image (which was badly bruised by me at ragging and etc), thrashed the junior boys. Now the next day the bf of the girl to show how much he cares again thrashed the guys. Batch unity came in 2004 and they made the 2003 guys apologize and during that time they hooted and overdid it. 2003 ppl on the cloak of sorting things out thrashed the juniors again. Meanwhile I must add that all thrashing were nominal and not like those witnessed on a typical engineering college(No hockey sticks etc). That was the end. The 2003 batch took the cue from 2002 batch but one miscalculation was that they didn’t factor in the Chetan Parikh (Gariboon ka messiah).He deserves the complete blog for himself. Coupled with junior pressure, same batch treachery, Chetan Parikh they were thrown out of the college hostel and fine for another semester.”

It isn’t the first time that anyone has been kicked. But mainly it was on account of boozing and once or twice on thrashing. It has become a norm with the advent of Chetan Parikh and Lenin (warden).In fact no one was ever expelled. Earlier the life was so cool. If they had been at the helm of in charge, then half of the 2001 batch would have been out of the hostel. And I would have been expelled on at least three accounts. What does the faculty want to prove with this? That they are the supreme commander. They have made the life as like a school boarding. Peeping on the rooms who are smoking, who is boozing etc. Come on grow up man. Checking is done so that all these things are done not in open, not to stop them completely.

The over-protectionism of the junior batches has led to the kind of batch divide. Really I do feel that these sorts of things bring batches closer if not overdone. Let them sort the thing themselves. It brings a sense of responsibility. Comparing all the seniors with the same parameters is bound to bring frustration. Many students who were expelled must have been innocent also. Who knows? More ever punishing only seniors because they are elder isn’t okay. Also a sign of warning to those juniors that not ever let yours blood boy on anything no matter how close the matter is close to yours heart, because history repeats itself. And it has already repeated in 5 yrs of college existence already.

We were the most cohesive with our seniors (2001 batch), because we had numerous fights amongst ourselves. Then with 2003 batch courtesy all those ragging and other fun stuffs. Now the bond is getting weaker and weaker in subsequent batches. No body cares. Seeing them daily and not acknowledging them. That’s what chetan has taught the juniors. But one thing they are forgetting that it’s the alumni which are going to help them when they are out of the college. So don’t go that far that the bonds never mature.

May the good sense prevail and harmless interaction continues between batches.What I intended to say was that policing is good but marshal law isn’t.

Why I want A Developed Bihar ……..

I want to return to my roots.

Seeing the current scenario in which our CM Nitish Kumar went all out to woo investors and Central Government.(I sincerely Hope That he Succeeds).

I don’t want to be seen as nomad travelling from one state to another having no home.I want to be able to work and earn respectfully at my home state along with all my child hood friends, who now might have become a paan shop owner or a Khataal-Waala.I am a social animal and i too wish to have my relatives living near to me.Like I see my friends from gujarat. I am tired of living all by myself and having to spend weekends all alone.I don't want to live as an tenant wherever i go, be it either with my parents who lived outside Bihar for a living ,or my self with the coaching institutes at delhi, college life at Ahmedabad or in future,when I work as a Software professional at bangalore.

I feel like an alien.It’s something like the indians living in the US. feels. Home but not really at home.I am also sick of having to hear all time that it's a BIMARU state. Can an Indian, anywhere in world hear any one bad mouthing India? Same with me. I love my state.

That’s Why I want a Developed bihar. Hope that Nitish Kumar brings all that what he has promised. I wish that when i retire I lead a peaceful life in Bihar village than living in a tiny flat with 30 floors, which has guzzled all my life savings.

Note: I am an final year engineering student at gujarat.